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Monday’s Scattered thoughts!
For today’s Scattered thoughts I wanted to share with you my fear of perception.
Perceptions have molded me, well most of me.
They have streched and confined me to be… whatever I felt they wanted me to be.
The problem is not in the changing, but in the end result.
Who am I? Who am I becoming? For whom am I becoming?
Interesting isn’t it? To think you have control but you just give it away
Give it away to your thoughts of what others think.
There are things you cannot control… I don’t care how hard you try
So where do I/we begin?
Simply, with me.
That is where change comes first.
Michael Jackson said it right I suppose.
oh silly man in the mirror! You don’t even know.
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More to come
Some Q time with the wifey
I love my wife! She is everything that I am not. Driven, Great Multi-tasker, ability to think and see things that I can’t, and a great cook. But with all those things said, it doesn’t speak the volumes of what she has done in my life.
So today we decided to play hooky from church to spend some ”Q” time together. To be honest we really haven’t made much of this time so is due.
We have talked about starting a date night once a week or trying to make an overnight trips somewhere about once every three weeks or a month. We will see how it goes. We want it to be free flowing, nothing forced. Something that gives us some spontaneity and fun memories.
What is quality time look like with your significant other?
Our Weakness and God’s Strength
For the past 4 years I have been going through and through my Guide To Prayer Book. Something I picked up for a class I had. Every week there is a theme which follows the church calendar.
This week, Our Weakness and God’s Strength.
Invocation:
Almighty God, through the power of your Holy Spirit you enable us to do more than we can think or imagine. Come now, dwell within us, and make us strong to do your work and will. Through Christ the Lord. Amen.
I would like to just sit with this a while. To think about what it means to be blessed by God’s strength. When one more step seems to be impossible, when forgiving someone for the unforgivable, when your world seems to have collapesed upon you. I think it can be easy to say or even sing, “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble…”(Psalms 46). But to believe it, to live it out loud without worrying when or how God will work. What would that look like?
Read Philippians 4:10-20.
Something to think think about!
> It is assumed that if God is omnipotent he can do anything; but this is not strictly true. What God’s omnipotence does mean is that nothing can obstruct him, nothing can prevent his being fully and eternally himeslf.
But this means that it is actually a part of htis omniportence that God does not contradict himself. He is free to determine the manner of his own working; and in fact, as we know from revelation, he has chosen to work in such a way that we can interfere, and interfere drastically, with his creation. God made man such that man could rebel against him, and set up his own “world” in opposition to God. Of course, God is not without allies even in “our” world; he knows that we can never really be satisfied with any world of our own devising, so that it will always be vulnerable to his influence in one way or another; and GOd exploits this to be full. Be he always respects the freedom and indendence that he has given us. (Prayer by Simon Tugwell)
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Saturday Night Live – MacGruber: Father and Son
I laugh everytime I see this! Enjoy.
Bands I like!
For this weeks Bands I like! it was a little bit harder to decide. So I had to check out some of my music stats and see who the winner was for the last two weeks. And just as I thought: Tadda! Athlete.
Now if any of you are fans of English Indie Rock Bands then let me introduce to Athlete. The first time I heard them was on an indie radio station as I was driving back home in 2004. The song was “You Got the Style” off their debut album Vehicles and Animals. Immediately I was hooked. When their 2nd Album, Tourist came out I was so excited. Song after song was just amazazing (great Summer Nights album).
Check em out!:
Athlete: Wires
Athlete – You’ve Got the Style
Athlete – Tourist
Athlete – Tokyo (New Album Beyond the Neighbourhood)
Hope you Enjoy!
Monday’s Scattered thoughts
For today’s Scattered thoughts I want to share with you a conversation I had with God. It was simple, honest and humbling.
At this particular junction in my life I have to say that I am extremely blessed. A beautiful wife that I have been dreaming of since I was 12 (Crazy HUh!), amazing friends (new and old), and a God that knows when to speak and when to be silent.
I ended it with a open hearted response/monologue:
I heard HIM speak to me today
Or perhaps I was just ready to listen
“All you have come to know about me is only a fraction”
“But I love you, so let that be enough”
Perhaps my understanding of him will never come in full
But I felt the collapse of his arms around me
“Everything that is happening to you now is only just the beginning”
“But I have plans for you, so let that be enough”
Perhaps my understanding of relationship with God has been infiltrated with doubt.
Doubt of His true existence, doubt of my potential, doubt that I could actually live a life worth living. I grew up thinking it was wrong to have these thoughts. To express them would be blasphemy. Yet in the conclusion of my education, I am faced with a whole new set of standards and responsibilities. My fear is not that I will fail, but maybe more that I will portray the same image I received. Ironic that all the lies I was told have imbedded in the deepest of depths of me. Yet I recognize them and still even deeper is the desire to be more of me (whatever that looks like). For now my goal is to pray. Honestly, sincerely, passionately, kicking and screaming. This is good. Father I know you are there. You know my thoughts, you know my heart. Help me consider my potential, to be the type of person who is in you and you are within me. I want people to see you inside of me, I want people to hear you from the way that I live and speak. Not for my glory but for yours. And when I am frustrated or prone to wander, remind me to listen. Remind me that not everything is so concrete, that things pass and fade away. And when I fade away from you, my your grace embrace all the more. I will run and I will cry, but even in my inaccuracies I know that you will always remain. The constant sun the illuminates my core and exposes it for what it really is. Lack of knowing and being known, the inability to be shown, and the awesomeness of a choice.
Low Morale: Creep
My wife sent me to this website http://www.lowmorale.co.uk/. You have to check it out! Here is one of the videos.
Hope you enjoy!
Trying hard to remember
Have you ever had a really really really good idea or train of thought that was just so profound and then you forget about what you were thinking about later on in the day? Well if you are like me then that frustrates the hell out of you. Well as I continue to live this life of scattered thoughts and random epiphanies, I think it is time for me to invest in a thought saver/personal voice recorder. It’s time. Too many good thougthts, too many good lyrics, to many profound things that are being missed. We shall see how this goes….
Bands I like!
For this weeks: Bands I like! I would like to bring back an oldy, way before my time but still a great band:
Steve Miller Band
Nothing says summer fun like a cold one by the pool, good friends and of course some Steve Miller Band. Thats what I remember growing up. Summer time loungin by the pool listen to rock. As we are now in a very hot and humid summer I throw my window down and just blast The Greatest Hits.
Here a few of my favorites that take me back to the good days!
Steve Miller Band - The Joker
Steve Miller Band – Fly like an eagle
Steve Miller Band – Keep Rockin me baby
With So many hits, it is hard to choose… have fun yall!



