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Giving new life and energy toArchive for March, 2009
What I do not deserve
I’ve gladly accepted everything I did not deserve.
Never knowning how to respond, I would willingly expect more.
The only fake thing about me is my response.
Quick and passive, with a hint of proper grammar.
So I walk between the know and the how,
Torn by the fact that exposing myself places the ever diligent finger on the reset button.
I do not know what real connectedness looks like,
too much of my life is fragmented, yet overflowing with mercy.
So again I accept what I do not deserve,
What I cannot distinguish,
and the fact that I am a complex part of a community just learning how to be.
A Different Direction
I had an epiphany this morning. A lot of the things in my life are not me, meaning I have only mimicked what I have seen others do well. It is time for me to bring new life to my thoughts and creativity. So from this point forward this will be a creative writing blog with tidbits of my interactions in this crazy world. It’s time to dig in!
Mondays Scattered Thoughts
So lately I have been rereading “The Church” by Donald Bloesch (Great Read), and I came to chapter on worship in spirit and truth. By far this is my favorite chapter. Here is a little tidbit:
“… True worship does not, however, reduce the human subject to nothingness; instead it elevates and edifies us in the knowledge that God is not only our Master but also our friend. Yet God is Master before he is Friend, and it is only as we experience the chasm that seperates us from God that we come to appreciate the irrevocable fact that God has bridged this chasm in Jesus Christ and that he is therefore with us as well as over and against us.
There is nothing new about his thoughts, its more about the way in which he says them. For some reason I keep coming back to the fact that God is my master, he is over me, and sometimes against me, as hard as that may be to wrap my head around . Lately I have allowed a callousness in infect my relationship with others and with God. My intentions were not evil just selfish, I figured I knew what knew and that was all I needed to know.
It wasn’t until this weekend that I really allowed to let it sink in. How? Well, honestly I realized the vitality of proper worship and teaching. Jami and I attended Lifechurch.tv in Gilbert, AZ yesterday. I was really looking forward to going and hearing Stephen Cole lead worship (if you don’t know, now you know), he didn’t lead this week, but they had a kick A worship set. It was raw, it was infectious, it was intentional. They do teaching through video and it was just great all around. I found God in the midst, not that I had lost him, but it is always good to see him and meet with him. And I was reminded of his awesomeness, his power over me, and it was “Good”.