Monday’s Scattered thoughts: Who knew? I did

Sometimes I get frustrated when I see things happen before they happen. The most frustrating thing is when I bring it up and everyone dismisses it. I often wonder what people think of me in these times.

I think I have a gift, not to become cocky about it but I really do feel I have a gift. I feel I can perceive things that not everyone can. But here is where it gets absolutely frustrating. I can’t see things happening in my own life. Like I am my own barrier. I’m sure its common, most people can’t see past themselves when it comes to themselves. For me I know it’s easier to look away from the mirror. I’m not scared to look in the mirror, I just chose not to.

Back to knowing it all… I can honestly say that in past 5 years since I stopped working for the church I have been bombarded with all that I lack and have yet to attain but at the same time all the training that took place in my college years I have been given this added perspective, this time to flush things out and sift things in. And in this constant adding and purging I have come to the realization that I have a gift. Perception, I value it, it helps to listen, its helps to see and outline. It helps.

Truth is… I don’t know it all but I do know a lot. And I do know I’m passionate about people, seeing people, listening to people, loving people.

Hows that for scattered?